“Laughing With”?
“If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.”
That is such a true statement. Unfortunately, I am the type of person who thrives on security and five-year plans. When my plans are thrown off course, I don’t know what to do with myself. My first instinct is to cling to whatever I can control and do everything in my power to get my feet back on the ground.
In my recent effort to do this, I swear that I can hear God laughing in the background. I wish that I could simply trust that everything is going to turn out okay. In theory, I know that it will. But I’ve always been one to listen to my heart instead of my head and be ruled by my emotions.
Maybe what I fear the most is that God’s definition of “everything turning out okay” is different than mine. I want a PA-C degree, a nice job with reasonable hours, a loving husband, a mindful puppy, and 2.5 children with pretty blue eyes. I want to be comfortable. I want to live where the sun shines and the beach is within an hour of my house.
Shh! Can you hear it? Somewhere, someone’s chuckling…
Lesley said,
July 13, 2009 at 2:54 pm
Story of my life…in my head I have my five-year-plan going for me. But I like to pretend it’s not there because I basically assume whatever I think I have planned will not be. I know that sounds weird, but I’m almost afraid if I plan it out too much God will be like, “ha! that’s what YOU think” and will change it. So if I pretend I don’t have a plan, I can trick God and things will work out how I want.
I bet God laughs at that even more, hahaha. As if He doesn’t know what I’m thinking…
Good luck, my friend. You are not alone. I know you know this, but I’m just reminding you that no matter what actually does come out of life, every experience is to help you grow and learn and will put you in people’s lives in a way that God wanted you to be.
I love you and you are incredible. Keep striving for greatness and for God to take the wheel…He knows what’s best! Just ask Him to align your plans with His. Obviously I don’t really know, but it seems as though much of what you do and how you live is for Him…and I think that’s what He has planned for you and loves!